netmichelle

I just got back into town from Burningman. I loved all of your responses to my initial blog entry. I was inundated with private messages and e-mails. I am glad I touched a chord in all of you that responded. Writing for me is a form of therapy. I thought I would share some thoughts with you all that were rambling in my head over the summer, and I have been quite suprised and pleased at the outcome. However after writing a similar response to numerous individuals I must reiterate a few things.

Please do not take my writings into such dire constraints without the understanding that these writings were written without a filter and written over the course of a few months when I had hit a few rough spots. During this time I got off my antidepressants. I have PTSD, post-traumatic-stress-disorder from a horrific event I lived through, and I was on heavy medication for more than a year. Life is not always rosy, and we all have our demons. I choose to keep mine in the bright sunlight. The pen has proven to be mightier than the sword. I know this to be true for me. Many ladies have contacted me, have concurred with some of my sentiments and have felt healing from what I said; one has even started her blog.


Peace.

Here are some responses I have received. Remember you can post anon here on my blog! Share with everyone.
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You’re going to get 10 million replies.  I know that
so I’m mostly writing this for me.  If you happen to
read it and it helps, or hurts, or makes you think, or
makes you laugh than it was worthwhile.  It is
worthwhile for me to write.

Loneliness is pervasive.  We battle its effects with
anything we can grasp.  Kittens, sex – meaningful and
meaningless, tours, books, art, work, marriage,
whatever it takes.  I forget the movie or the play or
the book where I read or heard that people get married
one day when they run out of things to talk about.
That was the case for me. Where it ended doesn’t
matter.

You know this already.  You’re way to smart and have
thought thoughts that are way too deep not to know
this, so I’m mainly saying it for me.  You have to
find some way, some reason to love yourself.  I never
would have guessed from the prose on your site that
you were veiled.  Do you have a split personality?
Are there times when you love who you are and times
when you hate who you are?  Without alcohol? Without
drugs?  Without companionship?

I’m not an analyst.  I think they’re for shit.  In my
experience analysts become analysts because they’re so
messed up they don’t know what else to do, so they
make appointments with people who are less warped then
they are in a vein attempt to pull them down.

I can’t help you.  I don’t know you.  I’ve never seen
you.  I know your words resonate somewhere down deep
and forced me to write.  I battle loneliness.  Your
battle and mine are similar, though mine takes a
separate path.

You are beautiful.  You are brilliant.  You are
valuable.  You have a deep soul.  You battle demons.
You win sometimes.  You lose sometimes.  You are
unique.  Uniqueness is the definition of perfection.
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Greetings Michelle. We have not met, and you may not desire it, but I want to acknowledge your beauty and brilliance.
There are very few things in life that gat the attention they deserve, and the recognition necessary. I have spent most of my life wishing I had taken action in certain situations instead of acting as a voyeur and dealing with consequence later.....I am working on stopping that.
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I read your blog.  It made me feel sad.  Unfortunately, I have no words of wisdom for you.
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Hello, this is X (better known as XX).  I have read your posts for some time and always find them quite quirky and entertaining... I saw your post this morning and went and read your blog... 
I wanted to drop you a note to let you know that I think you are a phenomenal writer.  I am an avid reader and I found your writing to be brutally honest, insightfully and most of all, very well written.  I couldn't stop reading it !!!  Even though I was currently involved in my current obsession at the time (X).  You should absolutely write a book.  While I'm giving unsolicited advice.......   if you don't already have a members section on your site, you should really consider it.  It is easy to do, and I think w/your following, it would be really successful and a great outlet for your creative energy.  I did X's members site and if you have any questions or I can be of any help, just let me know.  
I just wanted you to know that I really envy your writing ability.  It is truly a gift to be able to express your self so creatively....
Best of luck and have a great day !!!!
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X
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